Goin to Cali

I have a Johnson & Johnson conference in California that I am attending this week. I leave Thursday and I get back on the following Wednesday. I have not thought much about it but since Friday I have just been so worried about leaving. Lora Kate is staying with my Mom and Dad and Andrea will be helping. Therefore I know she'll be in good hands and she loves being at their house so that's not a concern. However, I am just so torn up about it. I remember in the last several years having friends that would be going on a trip and leaving the child/children behind and how emotional they would be. I always thought it was just the funniest thing. I remember thinking of one certain friend, "Geez you can't leave your child for just a little while and enjoy your 'me' time." Guess that's what I get bec/ now that person is me. I am just in knots over leaving Lora Kate for almost an ENTIRE week!!! I know it's not that long but that week feels like I'm saying I'm going to be gone for a month. I am going to miss her TERRIBLY!!! I laid with her last night and it took me a while to fall asleep. I sat there and watched her and just got all teary-eyed because all I could think was how MUCH I was going to miss her. Of course I also had some wierd thoughts about what if something happened to me, etc but we won't go into that. I'm just a paranoid nightmare right now over leaving her. So please keep me (and her) in your thoughts and prayers. I'm sure she will be just fine and shoot, she may not even know I'm gone (though I selfishly hope she does and she misses me). On the other hand, I'm going to be a wreck come Wednesday night when I leave for Atlanta (Andrea is taking me to the airport on Thursday morning). Woe is me, woe is me...